Tuesday, July 31, 2007
There's a girl I used to know.
Full of life and appreciates even the most trivial things that come her way.
She's got so much love to give and millions of warm hugs to offer for you and me.
She doesn't say much yet she'll make a silly face just to make you laugh with her when you're feeling down and blue.
She's got the brain, the wits, the heart, the will.
She stumbled one day.
She's lost a little of the spark in her.
She's lost a lot of that twinkle in her eyes.
And she wonders if she'll ever find herself again.
Monday, July 30, 2007
ZOMBIE
....trying to catch the deluge in a papercup....
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I figure this is going to be a long ride.
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So, the start of my weekend involved an underwater swim and an overturned mock chopper. Either my eyesight is getting worse or the water is to blame because I couldn't see a thing. Unless it's pre-meditated and everyone plays the 'who does it quickest' everyday, I cannot imagine anybody being put in a real life emergency ditch to be able to remember what to do with the rebreather pack.
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Push silver button (I discovered I'm one grip too small to use one hand)....put mouthpiece in....put nose clips on....release red knob....take one deep breath in....blow in air....breath normal (through your mouth like going scuba diving), do not hyperventilate (must remember not releasing the red button would do you no good and you'll fill your lungs with seawater)....
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Hell....you'll be submerged faster than you can say EBS....
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Back to office after lunch to attend a meeting. Packed my stuff (got homework to do during my KL weekend, what are the odds?). Then it was a rush to the airport to catch the 1900 hrs flight to KL (thanks for the ride, man). One nasi lemak later (I was dang starving) and I was off.
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The landing was the smoothest one ever. No long delays. I'm impressed. The girls were waiting for me at the terminal. Without even making a stop at the house, where else to head to than our favourite hang out place.
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Where some obscene activities took place that night.
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....Gosh, who are you people? What have you done to my friends??!!!
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I just crashed on my nice, cosy bed the moment I reached home.
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Saturday. 0800 hrs.
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Feeling groggy but ready to face the day! :) Warm shower woke me up a little.
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After finishing some business with the management I took a cab to One Utama to shop and ended up only with a CD, a nailclipper, something for my vanity chest and a haircut. Had brunch along the way and I was sitting there indulging my 'pandan ais' and not so tasty 'soto ayam', when I noticed a lady coming towards me.
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"Haven't seen you for so long. Where have you been??!!!"
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Oh shit. Who the hell are you, lady? MUST THINK HARD (and continue smiling). I do hope you got the wrong person.
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Work? Nope. I'm in big trouble. School? Doubt it. Come on, come on!
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She was still standing there. "I always see you in class and then you suddenly disappeared!"
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Ah yes! The gym! But lady, I still don't know your name and I hell don't remember your face (I know, my memory sucks). I invited her to sit with me, which she kindly obliged. We got to know each other and had a good chat (luckily we were never introduced to each other before this anyway, so I was a bit relieved). I really should thank her for remembering me although I never made it a point to get to know people from the same class. The least I could do was buy her her drink.
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Which I did.
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I miss the class alright.
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And then there was Camp-5!
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Oh yeah, I had an awesome time (now you know what the nailclippers are for). Especially Khairul, who really was so enthusiatic about rediscovering wall-climbing all over again. A big thank you to Master C-Foo who took the time to teach us a rope trick or two (Part 1, I presume) and have got to apologize that he didn't get to climb himself because of house rules. Next time maybe? :)
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We scaled the walls until we puked.
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After saying our goodbyes, headed home and rushed for another date, with food. Why I agreed to clubbing after that bewilders me still. I had only 3 hours of sleep before the big breakfast the next day. But I have to say, it was a great outing.
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Two shots of coffee certainly didn't wake me up enough. The day finally came to and end and before leaving.....food again! Lunch at Bangsar Village before heading to LCCT in a crazy speeding Kancil. Almost didn't make it on time.
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Fantabolous weekend indeed.
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And I'm a happy walking zombie.
Thursday, July 26, 2007
SMELLS LIKE TEEN SPIRIT
....A fabulous start to a fantabulous weekend....
"Let's do something crazy."
That alone should have triggered alarm signals like mad but believe it or not, my first thought was "At last.....'do something' and 'crazy' in the same sentence!"
Haven't come across that for ages!
(As if driving all the way across the border for sushi wasn't 'crazy' enough)
"Let's climb Canada Hill."
Ok....how hard could that be?
Well, let's just say I haven't sweat that much since I left the gym and could have gotten stuck in the middle of the jungle after sunset (although I have a feeling that it was intentionally staged to 'build character')
So who in their rightful mind would want to hike in the dark?
Me!!!!
If you want to know how I performed, ask Taiko Tan (although I do feel he won't like that moniker, let's see how he responds, if he gets to read this of course).
And here's proof of my getting down and dirty.
There goes my RM200 Nike trainers. They've served me well.
But I wasn't bothered.
And what's the best way to reward oneself after such tyranny? (Well, track is quite easy to be frank).
An Italian dinner and some good ol-skool Nirvana!
:)
Wednesday, July 25, 2007
....table talk and the sour plum....
....when is Friday ever coming?....
So, so you think you can tell
Heaven from Hell?
Blue skies from pain?
Can you tell a green field from a cold steel rail?
A smile from a veil?
Do you think you can tell?
And did they get you to trade your heroes for ghosts?
Hot ashes for trees?
Hot air for a cool breeze?
Cold comfort for change?
And did you exchange a walk on part in the war for a lead role in a cage?
How I wish, how I wish you were here
We're just two lost souls swimming in a fish bowl, year after year
Running over the same old ground
What have we found?
The same old fears
Wish you were here....
Sunday, July 22, 2007
....discovering Miri....
This weekend was spent in Bintulu. A 2 1/2-hour journey along the coastal road.

....5.42 p.m.....
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....6.25 p.m.....
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....6.37 p.m....
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I was actually dumbfounded.
I never truly explored this side of Miri before. Even if I did, I never really appreciated it.
Simply breathtaking....
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Friday, July 20, 2007
....20.07.2007 NDE....
The day started well. Everything was well. A very good coincidental event after the other. It was a good day that I finally picked up my lazy self to go register for membership at the Boat Club (at long last). Happy with the good day, I found a spot near the beach to soak up the evening sun....

....and watched a bit of beach volleyball....
A good evening has to end with a good dinner so I decided to follow some friends to Brunei (no, not a name of a restaurant, it's the country next door) for some Japanese food. All the way. Food was awesome of course, worth the drive.
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Still happy but now on a full stomach, we headed back in the rain.
Without a second of warning, the incoming car suddenly lost control and swerved to our lane.
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I'm owing my life to our driver, KC.
My last word was f*%#! Sit up front and you'll know how it feels to have a near death experience....
.... all for the sake of sushi.
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Monday, July 16, 2007
Saturday, July 14, 2007
....home alone....
I packed my trusty notebook and head straight for Coffee Bean.
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It’s been a few days since I last wrote. For the most part, I’ve just been plain lazy. Other than that, I’ve nothing much to say nowadays, although I’ve been thinking a lot about one very significant issue. And it has a lot to do with what’s been happening in my life.
Forgiveness.
Too many songs out there talk about forgiveness. Oh yes, to forgive is very easy. To me, I can do that whole-heartedly, no grudges with the drop of a hat. And true enough, forgetting is another thing. What I think the mind is trying to do is subconsciously and deliberately refuse to let go of things we’d rather forget as a reminder of how cruel people can be. So that we don’t take things too easy.
Here’s the thing, this time, there's a person I REFUSE to forgive. I don't give a damn. I may sound bitter but I just know that me forgiving didn't make any difference, and it probably won't. I'm tired of forgiving, at least in this case. Am I trying to prove a point? Am I attempting to show that I, for once can also be merciless enough if you push me to the limit?
For now, I know I'm contented with what I'm doing. It feels good to be mean.
Vengeance never felt so sweet.
Forgive, sounds good
Forget, I'm not sure I could
They say, time heals everything
But I'm still waiting
I'm through with doubt
There's nothing left for me to figure out
I've paid a price
And I'll keep paying
I'm not ready to make nice
I'm not ready to back down
I'm still mad as hell
And I don't have time
To go round and round and round
It's too late to make it right
I probably wouldn't if I could
Cause I'm mad as hell
Can't bring myself to do what it is
You think I should
I know you said
Why can't you just get over it
It turned my whole world around
And I kind of like it
I made by bed, and I sleep like a baby
With no regrets
I'm just not ready to make nice....
Wednesday, July 11, 2007
....freakingly freaky....
Today's (Horror)scope: -

The Bottom Line
Not every intellectual connection sparks a great romance, but you need only one.
In Detail
Your brain is your most powerful erogenous zone, and today it is going to get stimulated quite a bit! Not every intellectual connection you have with someone today will spark a great romance, but there will be one particular conversation that stays in your mind for days. You are starting to understand that the value a person can add to your life comes more from what they say and how they think than from how they look. Rearrange your list of priorities accordingly.
Ironically enough, I can't seem to get this song out of my head the whole freaking day....
You could be my unintended
Choice to live my life extended
You could be the one I'll always love
You could be the one who listens to my deepest inquisitions
You could be the one I'll always love
I'll be there as soon as I can
But I'm busy mending broken pieces of the life I had before
First there was the one who challenged
All my dreams and all my balance
She could never be as good as you
You could be my unintended
Choice to live my life extended
You should be the one I'll always love
I'll be there as soon as I can
But I'm busy mending broken pieces of the life I had before
I'll be there as soon as I can
But I'm busy mending broken pieces of the life I had before
Before you
The problem is, any real intellectual conversation that sticks in my head right now took place in a meeting I had with my TWO bosses earlier today.
So much for signs.
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Sunday, July 08, 2007
....my 3 favourite boys....
Today, I just feel the emptiness without them. In no time, I was finding my way to the local pet shop. Instead of getting solace, it just breaks my heart even more. The condition these pets are in are just so heart-rending. They looked so sad. I wished I could just whisk them away right there and then and give them a proper home.
I hope my boys are happy and doing fine.
....Pablo....
....Aimar....
....Diego....
Saturday, July 07, 2007
....flight of the bumblebee....

I fell in love.
I know I'm not the only one.
After watching the movie today (fine, it was originally a VW and all), I still feel a tad guilty of wishing that my Aveo just magically TRANSFORMS into THAT yellow Camaro. Oh, I wish....
*Tsk*. I love my Chevy.

....would you say no to having this guardian by your side?....

....I still love my yellow Chevy....(oooppssss ;P)....I mean my blue Chevy :D....
Friday, July 06, 2007
....still cool....20 years later....

Transformers. (You have GOT to read this link)
I really need to pick up my butt and go watch it. TOMORROW.
From what I gathered so far, THIS is the sleeper hit of the year. I mean it's everything expected from a Michael Bay movie, the fantabolous stunts, extravagant effects and repeated slow-mos but nobody talks about this movie the same way like they talk about Spiderman 3, or Pirates, or Fantastic Four (which, more often than not, starts off with the deep thinking face....silence....a little pout or smirk....followed by the long-awaited 'O...K.......lah'. That just says it all).
Everybody seems to agree that one time is not enough.
Worth my wait?
I'll find out tomorrow.
Wednesday, July 04, 2007
Monday, July 02, 2007
....the shortest weekend....
After all of life's little drama the past week, I packed my bags and flew to KL to spend time with people whom I care.
Friday, 29th June 2007
But of course, being a drama magnet, I just had to go through it one last time before I'm even allowed to have some peace and quiet I longed for.
My flight was cancelled: TWICE! The 7.00 p.m. flight was first pushed to 9.20 p.m. and when I entered the boarding hall, surprise, surprise. It was announced that it has been 'retimed' to 10.10! Nicer way to say it was delayed? Blimey, I'll arrive at midnight!
I slept almost all the way. Excitement has turned into impatience and frustration. I was practically dragging my feet on the tarmac as I walked to the terminal. Then, the wait for my luggage. If I knew, I would'nt have checked it in. Then again, if I knew....
Two handsome young men were waiting for me at the gate. Or was I just dreaming it? I couldn't distinguish the faces among the crowd. I suddenly realized I forgot to put my glasses on too. But when they rushed over to give me the biggest and warmest of hugs, I knew I was finally safe home.
I wished that I didn't have to let go.
Nat drove us home that early morning, despite her having prior arrangements to attend a gathering of some sort. I opened the door to my house, it felt like I never left. But there's also a heaviness in my heart I cannot ignore. A sense of familiarization, but dread. Serenity but doubt.
4 a.m. - Something woke me up. Thoughts just started to stream in. I sat myself up on the couch and looked out the window. I took a deep breath and forced myself back to sleep. I'm not about to give in.
Saturday, 30th June 2007
Breakfast with Kak Azah and Zaini. I've been missing them so much. We spent time after breakfast just walking around the mall, killing time.
Afternoon: I took a cab to The Curve to hang out with Nat. Some stupid cab driver wanted to rip me off of RM55 to drive me there. The nerve! I ended up taking another cab and only being charged RM13! I paid him RM15.
Without having much time to go home and change, I headed straight to One Utama after that for my little reunion with Sal and Raz. Our grand reunion turned into only us three having dinner in Ms Read. Nobody else showed up. Sal and I flew all the way so naturally it was a bit disappointing. But we had a great time. We vowed never to organize anything, ever again.
Sunday, 1st July 2007
Exactly 8 a.m. I got a knock on my door. I didn't quite expect it, but it was a pleasant surprise nonetheless. Klev made it on time for our big Sunday Starbucks breakfast we missed so much. And he came with a small gift neatly tied with a red ribbon he actually did himself. Neat! Wonder why that is such a big deal? Attempting a Tifanny & Co. bow for the first time till the wee hours of the morning just doesn't sound like it was a breeze.

....the big breakfast....

....Aretha Franklin I thought would never again appear back into my life after one Friday the 13th....
We headed to KLCC also with another mission in hand. Who would have thought that finding a birthday gift could be this tricky! But then again, we did find the time in between to actually do our own window shopping, at least it kept us sane (remember those insanely chunky wedges?), if not we would've ended wrecking our brains! Last touch-up; gift-wrapping over sandwich. Multi-tasking is the game. Mission accomplished.

....at last! Fine, I didn't have the chance to take a picture of it myself so I just grabbed it from ManjaKid himself....
I was dropped off at Bangsar after that to meet up with Lyn. Sweet Lyn gave a surprise of a 1 1/2 hour massage session at her spa! Just what I needed badly these days. I'm never going to forget it. The whole gang then headed to Sakae Sushi for an early dinner before my flight to Kuantan (Yes, work awaits me still). Syima was also there. We laughed, we ate (a lot), we gossiped, we didn't realized that it was already late!
I missed the flight to Kuantan at 8.10 p.m. Had to take the next one scheduled at 9.45 p.m. And lo and behold; 'retimed' to 10.45 p.m.!
The drama just never stops.
Kak Azah & Zaini - It was really good to catch up with you. I'm going to miss you.
Raz & Sal - Well, I guess the reunion's back to being us as usual. But I had no regrets. Thanks also to Acum for showing up.
Nat - Take care over there, dear. Enjoy your book!
Klev - Where do I start? Appreciate every second of your precious time you're willing to spend. Always know that I'm never too far away.
Teoh - My favourite Manjakid. Hope you like the early birthday gift. All hugs.
Lyn - You are the bomb, lady! Lots of love.
Syima - Girl, behave! :D I'm going to miss you.





